pause/still

still unemployed. i should be used to that by now. it's just that i'm forced to be a little more responsible now. my rent is twice as much plus for some reason i have a plethora of bills right now. and i wouldn't want my house mates to think i'm this lazy bum who never has to work because everything just gets handed to me. i can't help it if sometimes i get what i pray for. when i've been wanting it for seven years i think it's acceptable. what's wrong with getting paid for what you love to do? something that's based on a schedule would be good in my life at this point. so i'm thinking one of those things called a job. because freelance work isn't a regular source of income and rent comes every month. i just don't want to end up delivering pizza or something like that...